Subtitle: I need a conversion experience.
I'm really struggling with the food issue. There is what i KNOW and BELIEVE, and then there is what i DO.
Part of the problem is that when i eat well and healthy, it doesn't really make me feel better. I don't lose weight, i don't have more energy, i don't have less pain. However, when i eat junk (which i do go thru phases with) i feel much WORSE. I'm really struggling with it, and even knowing how bad some of the "food" i'm eating is, at times i just struggle to care. I need an experience of conversion which will motivate and jump start better habits. Sigh.
I've found someone who can come cook for me. So far i'm impressed with her. I think it will end up being temporary - she recently came to Big Bear and may not stay - but for now i think it will be a good thing. She seems to be a good self-starter, and i don't have to hold her hand to have her do what i need. Even if she doesn't stay long, at least we'll have some food in the freezer. Also, a friend knows of someone who might be willing to come and help for a while. Since she doesn't live in Big Bear, it would take some arranging, but that might be fun, too.
The end of December saw the last of the bright orange and reds of the sweet gum trees (in Orange County, in Big Bear the leaves were all gone by mid-to late October). They are now dropping "gum balls."
The is ornament on the left is one of the sweet gum balls i painted white and added glitter to use for a Christmas decoration. I have a handful of these. Now in Orange County the ornamental trees blooming. I've never heard what these trees with the white flowers are called. They look like a crab apple to me, but they never have fruit. Still, they are very pretty when they are in bloom.
Big Bear has been warmer than normal. When we left on Tuesday, it looked like the roses were greening. I hope this fake spring doesn't confuse our trees, because starting to bud out now could do a lot of damage.
I've long hated shoes. I don't feel that arch supports are healthy, and now i have a link to prove my beliefs! It is this (very long) article at New York Magazine: You Walk Wrong. So, i've been walking around the office today barefoot (not even those flip-flops on) from the justification of the article. Still, no matter how strongly i believe this, going barefoot is never going to look professional. I like these shoes, too, but they will never really look professional, either.
My two year blogging anniversary came and went and i never even noticed. My first post was 18 January 2009. Ah well.
We have been living in Big Bear for almost 4 years now. We moved the middle of February 2007.
We've been living at Sugarbear for 3 years now. We closed on the house and began moving 30 January 2008. It is a happy life, even if i'm still aching for children. We love it. :)
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I'm really struggling with the food issue. There is what i KNOW and BELIEVE, and then there is what i DO.
Part of the problem is that when i eat well and healthy, it doesn't really make me feel better. I don't lose weight, i don't have more energy, i don't have less pain. However, when i eat junk (which i do go thru phases with) i feel much WORSE. I'm really struggling with it, and even knowing how bad some of the "food" i'm eating is, at times i just struggle to care. I need an experience of conversion which will motivate and jump start better habits. Sigh.
I've found someone who can come cook for me. So far i'm impressed with her. I think it will end up being temporary - she recently came to Big Bear and may not stay - but for now i think it will be a good thing. She seems to be a good self-starter, and i don't have to hold her hand to have her do what i need. Even if she doesn't stay long, at least we'll have some food in the freezer. Also, a friend knows of someone who might be willing to come and help for a while. Since she doesn't live in Big Bear, it would take some arranging, but that might be fun, too.
The end of December saw the last of the bright orange and reds of the sweet gum trees (in Orange County, in Big Bear the leaves were all gone by mid-to late October). They are now dropping "gum balls."
The is ornament on the left is one of the sweet gum balls i painted white and added glitter to use for a Christmas decoration. I have a handful of these. Now in Orange County the ornamental trees blooming. I've never heard what these trees with the white flowers are called. They look like a crab apple to me, but they never have fruit. Still, they are very pretty when they are in bloom.
Big Bear has been warmer than normal. When we left on Tuesday, it looked like the roses were greening. I hope this fake spring doesn't confuse our trees, because starting to bud out now could do a lot of damage.
I've long hated shoes. I don't feel that arch supports are healthy, and now i have a link to prove my beliefs! It is this (very long) article at New York Magazine: You Walk Wrong. So, i've been walking around the office today barefoot (not even those flip-flops on) from the justification of the article. Still, no matter how strongly i believe this, going barefoot is never going to look professional. I like these shoes, too, but they will never really look professional, either.
My two year blogging anniversary came and went and i never even noticed. My first post was 18 January 2009. Ah well.
We've been living at Sugarbear for 3 years now. We closed on the house and began moving 30 January 2008. It is a happy life, even if i'm still aching for children. We love it. :)
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