The Trooper hasn't been running well since we had it worked on 3 weeks ago. I took it back today; it was not good news. It was going to take $800 just to diagnose the problem (most likely meaning that it would need a new transmission). Then parts/labor??? We just spent $300 getting it legal to drive, now this. I freaked. I totally freaked. The car is worth maybe $1000.
Duane was off the hill & i left the Trooper at the repair place. Dear friend David saw me waiting for the bus (Duane's car was at the Sheriff's station, he'd gone with some other SAR folks to a funeral). He gave me a ride to pic up the car.
I then went & got some Mother's Day cards (5 - 3 mamas/2 grandmas). I've never had a hard time with that before, but i've now spent most of the rest of the day crying. It didn't help that when i finally said, "I've got to just get out of the house" & went to a restaurant to read & be at peace i had to listen to a conversation of a new father about his daughter who is 2 months old & what joy he finds in parenthood. Nor did it help that my niece announced on FB that she got to hear the baby's heartbeat today. (Although she said "babies"? Is she having twins?)
I don't handle stress very well these days. I am totally, completely drained of any energy.
I just wanted to pound my head against a wall. Why now? Why now? Why couldn't this have happened before we sunk $300 into that car 3 weeks ago? (I'm keeping the Simple Dollar principles firmly in my head: the $300 is sunk money; don't throw more money at the problem.)
Ultimately, we had them put more transmission fluid in the vehicle & i drove it home. Which made it clear to me that this car is about kaput. It strained on the hills - & believe me, the ones i had it on were minor.
We were hoping this car would last at least 2 more years, but were hoping more for 4. We really can't afford to replace it. Lord knows what we will do.
Yeah, i know, time will work it out. In a few weeks' or months' or years' time it won't make any difference. Why get all emotional over something that can't be fixed? Take a deep breath & keep on going.