Can i be brief? I'm not sure.
We missed church all the month of June until today. The first Sunday after the excommunication, i simply wasn't in the mood to go to any church, anywhere. The following Sunday Duane was away for a SAR commitment. The one after that was Father's Day & we never attend either that or Mother's Day (although Duane was off the mountain that day, too).
So today was our first day at a service for the month. We tried out a small church that is affiliated with Assemblies of God. Very passionate church. I liked that there are a lot of children there. I don't think either Duane or i would be comfortable attending there often.
The truth of the matter is that we like liturgical services. They are what Duane was raised with. They are part of a healing in my life coming out of an unhealthy church background. They feel "safe" to me - i know what is going to happen when & what to expect (except when G was doing the service!). And, frankly, most Protestant churches that are non-liturgical feel incomplete & unbalanced to me. The lack of the liturgy is such a loss. Also the loss of regular communion.
So, "home" is probably not to be found. But that's ok. Church hopping feels fine for now. I'd like to get involved in a "small group" so that we can meet others & perhaps make deeper connections. But, maybe in time.
Maybe, because the page is so wide now, this will look brief! :)