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01 January 2012

Happy New Year

O God and Heavenly Father,
Grant me the serenity of mind to accept that which cannot be changed;
courage to change that which can be changed,
and wisdom to know the one from the other,
through Jesus Christ our Lord, Amen.
Reinhold Niebuhr

I always thought this was by Saint Francis of Assisi and i'd never heard of Reinhold Niebuhr, but this is the Saint Francis Prayer:

Lord, make me an instrument of your peace.
Where there is hatred, let me sow love.
Where there is injury, pardon.
Where there is doubt, faith.
Where there is despair, hope.
Where there is darkness, light.
Where there is sadness, joy.
O Divine Master,
grant that I may not so much seek to be consoled, as to console;
to be understood, as to understand;
to be loved, as to love.
For it is in giving that we receive.
It is in pardoning that we are pardoned,
and it is in dying that we are born to Eternal Life.

Saint Francis of Assisi

My mother had a copy of this in her house.

It looked like i'd abandoned my blog, didn't it?

I didn't mean to be gone for so long. I ended up getting really busy. 

I made about 20 hats for a pediatric cancer unit (not all pictured here),

tons of finger puppets, the snowflakes i've already posted, and

tatted necklaces.

Duane made “survival bracelets” from paracord for the boys.

Because i did 12 days of Christmas for 19 people, i ended up having well over 200 little things to wrap. I'd kind of forgotten that part, and it took me days and days to get it all done. I'd thought i'd be done by late November or early December, but i'd forgotten about all the wrapping.

I've been struggling with negativity and anger. It seems so much of what i have been thinking/feeling is so very negative or angry, i've not wanted to write.

Also – and this is a good thing ! - i've been up more and not on the computer quite as much. I've been playing with amino acids with the help of Julia Ross' The Mood Cure. It has been a hit and miss thing. Some of the aminos made me worse. I am not “cured” by any means, but i am sleeping better and have been able to manage the energy i do have more efficiently.  I haven't considered depression my issue for a long time, but i find a lot of things that surround depression - like trouble sleeping - addressed in this book and i still struggle with them.  

I'm struggling with faith, too, tho this is an on-going thing. I know i have readers (if you're still coming!) who would disagree, but i just don't see a lot of evidence that God intervenes in our lives much at all. I've long believed that God's interaction is largely spiritual and not physical, and i don't see much that changes my mind about this.

I've several people in my life right now who have cancer or other medical issues. I do not understand the faith of Christian people in conventional medicine. “My doctor says . . . ” is quoted as if from some great prophet. I've a whole lot to say on that issue.

I have still sometimes perused the blogs i was reading before, but have not commented due to my fore-asaid negativity. I've tended to be sarcastic in this mood – not that i wanted to be rude to anyone i read but i didn't trust myself or what i would say would come out right. While i was gone, Sara died.

(I like this font, but it is interesting that the “G”s and the “Q”s look the same in lower case: g q .  Also, this font seems harder to read and to manipulate in blogger, so i'll probably abandon it.)
I also need to “clean up” my blog from old pictures (i'll be running out of room soon) and old negativity – i've said some things that needs to come off! So old posts may show up as new. I know that tends to happen when you edit.
So, it is a new year, and my goal is to ascribe to Sara's “Choose Joy” and the prayer quoted at the beginning of the page (tho St. Francis is one to keep in mind, too).  If i've still any readers - thank you for showing up!  I hope you have had wonderful holidays, and a really blessed 2012.


Jessica Renshaw said...

Hi Kathryn,
Good to hear from you again--on both blogs! I hope this year will be your best ever, bar none!

kare said...

Welcome back! It's So good to catch up with you.

WoW! You Went All Out...
What wonderfull gifts you created.

i've been missing your insights and praying all is well for you and Hubby.
Happy New Year to You both!!
*Hugg'z & Buzz'z

Mali said...

Lovely to see you'd posted again.

If I were you I wouldn't delete things from your blog. They're evidence of how you were feeling at the time, and maybe they now show how far you've come. I also believe that if we try to pretend everything is wonderful all the time, then others who look to us for inspiration feel as if there's something wrong with them, because life isn't rosy for them.

I personally find writing very therapeutic, and getting the negativity out helps me to move on.

I do understand though that you might want to remove the negativity for your own sake. At least, keep a back-up copy of them somewhere.

Happy New Year and all the best for 2012.

Kathryn said...

Hi Jessica - thank you. :)

Kare! Thanks, it is good to be back and catch up with folks. Thank you for your prayers and good wishes.

Hi Mali. Thanks for the feed back. When i said "delete" it basically meant move to a private blog. This blog is public, tho i don't promote it among friends/family. I know i have said a few things in the past that i should have been more careful of. If those folks should begin reading my blog (and i would be shocked), i'd hate to have them hurt because i wasn't careful enough.

I find writing therapeutic, too! :)

Best wishes to y'all, and may you have a blessed New Year.

David Edward said...

your needle work is impressive, and your words and thoughts are important. i like that you are not simplistic, easily satisfied about spiritual things, nor are you in any danger of giving up in your quests. MORE power to you, and energy and health be yours, in the coming weeks and years. Happy New year to you.

Imaginography said...

I love the finger puppets! They're so sweet :) good for you - helping others despite not feeling great yourself. I am sure your efforts made a difference.

I hope 2012 brings good things for you and that you had a good Christmas.


Amrita said...

Hi Kathryn and Duane, Hapy New Year to you.

Those prayers comfort me too.

I love your creations. They will bring joy and happiness to so many. God bless you

Stacey said...

Happy New Year, Kathryn. Your projects turned out beautifully and I'm sure brought smiles to many faces!

Anonymous said...

Hi Kathryn and wow, are you talented! So many hats and little finger puppets - adorable! And to think I am still knitting that same scarf I began a few months ago...LOL. Ah, well.